What's up all??. Well I'm Jill, or Jillian, or Jilldo as I am known to many. Um let's see...I am not really sure how to describe myself at all. I am probably the biggest walking contradition there is, mainly becuase of my continual search to answer that ever pressing question "who is jilldo really." I like to think I'm really goofy when I'm not stressing about something which is frequently because I have two jobs that odd up to 30-35 hrs a week during school, and a lot of late nights at the library and a lot of missed opportunities to enjoy my youth. What I mean when I say I am a walking contradiction is the fact that I do love life and all it has to offer. I have experienced many things in life that make me realize everyday how truely special each one of us is, and on the hand, I am very sinical about many things in life. Also, When I am with my family, I have the most bitter and dry sense of humor that only my family and certain individuals can pick up on and even though I seem bitter, its just who I am sometimes when I'm in chill mode and it makes me happy to be that person. Most people are too sensitive to see this side of me and im not mean, i just don't think they are expecting it. And then on the other hand i can be the most goofy fun and hyper person to hang out wiht...expecially after a couple of drinks. My sense of humor can also get a little bit gross, as my roomate has full knowledge of at this point. Another thing about me is that I am obsessed with music. Any type of GOOD music you can think of, I probably have a personal connection to in some way. If I were to describe any significant or even sometimes insignificant morory or point in time of my life, I would be able to tell you what artist or album I was curently obsessed with. Although I have never fully carrioud through on my attempts to learn an instrument, and have repeatedly tried to teach myself how to read music, I am currently focused on learning the guitar...We'll see how hard Michelle Branch's cords are to learn. Michelle Branch is someone's music that I admire. I also like the fact that she doesnt' sell her music with sex. It is refreshing to find a girl artist that admitedly can't dance. Well I'm sure there are alot but I just like her ok! It basically means that I still have a hope at becoming a singer. oh wait, I such at singing, I haven't learned the guitar yet, I am deathly afraid of singing for an audience (and i don't mean me frequently annoying my friends with outbursts of songs) and most of all, no one wants a Michelle Branch wanna be... Oh well, maybe I will someday figure out who I am, get singing lessons, overcome my fear of singing in front of crowds and learn the guitar before I get too old, ugly and fat to really be an idol to millions of fans. Or I could just forget about achieving originality and sell myself as a new trend and forgo any creativity and character that I might have had the way that Jewel did. I like jewel before she became a poster model for pre-teens of how to sell your soul to the devil, I mean seriously. Anyways, I'm tired and if i don't stop now, I could go on forever about nothing, and no one really wants that...Hope you enjoyed...and yes I do over use the ... so get used to it damn it! Night all:)